| Location | Broadstairs, Kent |
| Age | 52 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 19/05/1955 |
| Date of Death | 19/04/2008 |
| Visitors | 2,860 since 08/07/2009 |
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I loved my brother so much and his death has changed me so much that I do not recognise the person I
was.
Paul was a quiet, thoughtful person. He was one of the funniest people you could meet with a very
dry, quiet sense of humour. He would draw character pictures of people that where brilliant. He
loved music with a passion - I have memories of him playing Led Zepplin, Cream full blast at home.
We come from a musical family - grandad could play the piano and his brother was a composer so you
could say it was in our blood.
Unfortunately, our home life was not a happy one especially for Paul. Our dad was an army man who
ran the home like the barracks. He and mum had a violent relationship and home was always tense. I
remember as a child staying awake listening to them fighting and my brother reading aloud to me so
that we could not make out what they were saying, Dad was very violent to my brother on more than
one occasion beating him with a stick until he was black and blue. I would try and stand in front
of Paul to try and protect him - although I was a lot smaller I often took the blows and abuse. Even
through all this Paul managed to go to Grammar School and seemed to gain confidence when he passed
all exams with flying colours managing to secure a place at University where he got a first class
degree. Unfortunatly he then lost direction and went from one job to the next saying he was unhappy
and wished he could find a job he enjoyed. I left home at 16 after rebelling my dad attacked me and
I then spent most of my time at my boyfriends home. I am sure that the events at home contributed
to my brother not having children or getting married and eventually his depression. It makes me so
sad that he never met that special person who could have reached him and look after him. His last
girlfriend of some time walked out of him during the last weeks of his life. I had not seem Paul
for a long time before his death (his choice) and you can imagine the guilt and pain that I feel. I
loved my beautiful brother and I think of him every minute of the day. I would give anything to be
sat with him in the car before he took his life to tell him he mattered to his friends and family
and that WE need him. A big part of me died with him. No-one can harm him now.
Where do they go to?
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Where do they go to, the people who leave?
Are they around us, in the cool evening breeze?
Do they still hear us, and watch us each day?
I'd like you to think of them with us that way.
Where do they go to, when no longer here?
I think that they stay with us, calming our fear
Loving us always, holding our hands
Walking beside us, on grass or on sand.
Where do they go to, well it's my belief
They watch us and help us to cope with our grief
They comfort and stay with us, through each of our days
Guiding us always through life's mortal maze.
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KevF - 21st August 2007
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♥ ☆
In every sunrise, every mountain
Every rainbow, every star
I'm loving you, I know you're there.
Are you sitting here beside me
Or were you that bird that flew.
I feel the wind blow in my ear,
And I'm wondering if it's you.
Are you reading over my shoulder?
Are you holding my hand right now?
I want to tell you I love you
But I'm not sure if I know just how.
I can feel you wiping my teardrops
And asking me please not to cry.
I'm missing you and loving you so much,
And I'm wondering why you had to die
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26TH NOVEMBER 2009
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The truest words of all I will not forget you
You are in my waking thoughts,
my sweetest memories, my dearest dreams.
I will not forget you
You have touched my soul, opened my eyes,
changed my very experience of the universe.
I will not forget you.
I see you in the flowers, the sunset,
the sweep of the horizon
and all things that stretch to infinity.
I will not forget you.
I have carved you on the palm of my hand.
I carry you with me forever.
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Ellen Sue Stern, Living With Loss, 1995
Beautiful memories are wonderful things, they last till the longest day, they never wear out, never get lost, and can never be given away. To some you may be forgotten, to others a part of the past. But to those who loved you, your memory will always last....
Remember when we went to see 10cc. You where at Nottingham Uni. It was a really good night but I will never forget you face when we dropped you off at your digs. You looked so lost and I got so upset going home I wanted to go back and hug you, bring you home.... I love you sooooo much.
10CC LYRICS
"Memories"
The summers were longer, they went on forever
Oh and the sky so blue
We never worried about anything
We didn't question the nature of things
We didn't want to know
Talking in whispers and wondering
Oh and I loved you so
Memories, they linger with you but you
soon forget that we started in innocence
Memories, they linger with you but you
soon forget when you're grown
We dream in the night, of mythical days
And nights in white satin
But when the child wakes, the fantasy breaks
We didn't know what the future would bring
We didn't want to know
Something was growing inside me
Oh and I loved you so
Memories, they linger with you but you
soon forget that we started in innocence
Memories, they linger with you but you
soon forget when you're grown
Photographs, faded photographs
Holidays, summer holidays
First love, broken promises
All a play, I'm going back to yesterday
The feeling was stronger, if went on forever
Oh and your eyes were true
We were so wrapped up in all of our dreams
We didn't care what the future would bring
We didn't want to know
Talking in whispers and wondering
Oh and I loved you so......
Memories, they linger with you but you
soon forget that we started in innocence
Memories, they linger with you but you
soon forget when you're grown
NIGHT NIGHT ANGEL,SWEET DREAMS x
Do you believe in angels
I know I surely do
The day I got my angel
Is the day god sent me you
I always feel your presence
As I’m going through my day
And during hard times and struggle
I can feel you as you pray
You’re always right there next to me
With everything I do
And when I need my angel
I’ll be calling out for you
All I have to do
Is look deep inside my heart
For you my angel are always there
And never shall we part
copyright� Melinda Tanner
**SORRY I HAVENT BEEN ON FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS TO DO YOUR TRIBUTES BUT IVE BEEN FEELING A BIT UNDER THE WEATHER AND TIRED BUT IM OK NOW**
LOVE AS ALWAYS CLARE x x x
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Wait for me where the sun shines,
Where carpets of flowers are laid.
A sky of blue the canopy,
All earthly troubles are slain.
No more worry or heartbreak,
no more pain or tears,
Wait for me in the sunshine,
Until then I`ll be counting
The years.
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Rainbows are like people,
That can`t always be seen.
That does not mean they were not there,
That they were just a dream.
Their beauty lingers in the mind,
A memory brings them through.
Wait long enough, and you`ll always find,
A rainbow there for you.
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Angel in my heart I love you so
Angel in my heart I never wanted you to go
Angel in my heart guide me each day
Angel in my heart It's for you I pray
Angel in my heart remember this
Angel in my heart It's you I miss
Angel in my heart I want you to know
Angel in my heart I will always love you so.
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I WILL BE AWAY FROM TOMORROW , ITS MY BIRTHDAY 26TH I WILL BE AWAY UNTIL MONDAY WILL YOU PLEASE LOOK AFTER MY ANGEL UNTIL I RETURN THANK YOU SO MUCH LOVE PAT XXXXX ☆
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25TH NOVEMBER 2009
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I AM RETURING TO WORK TOMORROW, SO I WILL NOT BE ON-LINE AS OFTEN, BUT YOU AND YOUR ANGELS WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY THOUGHTS. X X
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